Monday, November 10, 2014

Old Lady Weekend

Sometimes I cannot believe how different my life is now. I used to drink every night, Thursday - Sunday, and usually Sunday was an all-day affair. Now...this is what I did with my weekend. And I loved every minute of it.

Friday - I worked, and then got home and I was so pumped because a package from Amazon had arrived (there have been far too many Amazon packages lately). This one was packages I had bought for myself, but I am handing them over to my mom so she can wrap them for Christmas. This is truly the best way to handle Christmas when your mother is like mine, who will just buy you random stuff that has nothing to do with you or your likes/dislikes. For years, she got me towels every year, until I finally had to say "Enough with the towels? How many people do you think shower at my place?"

Anyway, I was particularly pumped for this package, because it is new sheets and a Roku for my bedroom (if you don't know what a Roku is, it's this little slice of magic that you plug into your tv and it allows you to stream Netflix, HBO Go, etc, through it). I decided I can't wait, so I unwrapped the magic Roku, set it up on my TV, and then packaged everything else up and I plan on giving my mom the empty box to wrap. Does that make me evil? Maybe. But I need to watch Scandal every night in my bed. (FYI, my mom does not read my blog, so if she finds out I did this I know who told

After getting that all set up, I met Missy and we went to the theatre to see St. Vincent with Bill Murray. SO GOOD. And shocker...I cried. Go see it.

Saturday I got up and ran a bunch of errands - Goodwills, Target, gym and the library. After all that, I went to my friend Erin's baby shower.

Was it weird watching a girl, who I once watched lick Captain Morgan off a table because she didn't want to waste alcohol, now freak out about baby socks and something that I can only assume is a purse for pacifiers? Absolutely. (Oh, and she decided the Morgan was too strong, so she dumped some coke on top of it and licked it all off the table.)

When that ended, I went over to Nick's and watched the Taylor Swift Shake it Off video with the boys, and then me, Nick and Hannah watched the movie The Neighbors with Zac Efron and Seth Rogen. We also had some angel food cake to celebrate Nick being on earth for another year.

Sunday I hit the gym early and then met Missy and Melissa for lunch at The Farmhouse (delicious) and then we went to the Harvest Festival, which is a huge craft fair at the Ralston arena. I love craft fairs.

Sunday night was spent watching the Bears forget how to play football and reading Lena Dunham's book.

Weekend = well spent. 

Friday, November 7, 2014

Timehop: 6 years ago

Yesterday I was off work and decided it was a great idea to put up my Christmas tree. I know it's not even Thanksgiving. And I don't care.

I mean hello, my dad is the freaking Santa Claus of Glenwood, did you really think I'm not obsessed with Christmas decor?

Putting up my Christmas tree is always a weird time for me, and I take my time and really think about what I am doing. It's a weird time for me because of these handmade decorations.

I made these in 2008. I was still suffering from the aftermath of my miscarriage and I had just lost my job at Harrah's. I was lonely, and was questioning every relationship in my life.  I needed something to fill my days, so I become obsessed with painting these ornaments. I was so depressed, so every day I would wake up, watch Beverly Hills 90210 on repeat, paint these ornaments and eat my feelings. 

Not much takes me back to those dark days. For the most part, when I talk to others about the events of that fall and winter, I crack jokes about it. And honestly, I am over both things. But, looking at these ornaments every year reminds me of the sadness of it.  I was lower than I have ever been, and I didn't know how to crawl out of it. I'm not even sure I wanted to. Every year, when I unpack my Christmas decor and put up my tree, I look at these little projects and remember how dark that time was for me. 

Every year I struggle with whether or not to keep them or throw them out. They are scratched and there are marks all over them from being stored all together in a bag. I have plenty of other ornaments now, so my tree is full without them. But I keep them, and I add them to my tree every year. 

Yesterday I put all my ornaments on the tree, except for these. I laid them out and  carefully looked at each one. In a moment, I became that 28 year old girl again. Not sure of what I was doing, completely heartbroken, and completely void of who I was. 

As I carefully put a hook through the top of each one, I realized I want to keep these out, on my tree, where I can see them. I am such a different person now. I am happy, truly happy, and I have great people in my life who care about me. Something switched yesterday, and these ornaments no longer make me sad about what happened. They make me thankful for the events that have turned me into the person I am supposed to be. 

Pretty deep for things I bought at Hobby Lobby for ninety-seven cents each, huh?

Thursday, November 6, 2014

Camping adventure

On Halloween, four girls went on an adventure in the woods. 

Makes sense, right? 

I was 100% convinced we were going to die. I mean, come on. That is the perfect plot for a horror movie. And if I was in a slasher film, I would die first FO SHO. 

But we all came out alive, although we did end up a little annoyed with Katie's snoring and the lack of running water. 

We headed to Hitchcock Nature Center in Honey Creek, Iowa on Friday afternoon. Our cabin was adorable, and we quickly got unpacked. 

Then Missy, Katie and I got some beers and decided to go on a quick hike. Emily was meeting us later. 

What is that thing, you ask? Missy's selfie stick. It is amazing. And yes, I already bought myself one off amazon. 

After our hike, Emily arrived and we started a fire for hot dogs, marshmallows and hot apple cider. 

Saturday morning we went on an actual hike. We highly overestimated our hiking skills, because wow. Ouch. No amount of half marathon training prepared me for that. 

After that, we hit civilization again and went to a bar to watch the Huskers play. We also ran into a winery, and of course we went in for a tasting. 

When we got back to our cabin, we played Cards Against Humanity, made some chili over the fire and stayed outside until we couldn't handle the cold and wind anymore. Any guess on who had to go inside first? (It was me.) 

Here's one more fun pic, compliments of the selfie stick.