It's still 16 days before my half marathon training officially begins. (I am using the Nike + app. They have a new "coach" feature that will help me through this whole debacle.) I have been working out really hard lately, though. I guess in my mind, it is to get me used to the hell I'm about to put my body through.
I am still super pumped for this thing. I reserved my hotel room and I'm starting to plan out that weekend. I'm fairly sure I will be flying solo that weekend. It does kinda make me sad that I will be crossing the finish line with no one there to be excited for me and hug me, but I'll be aight. I am really excited that my first major race is themed Wizard Of Oz - I think it's meant to be.
Since I will be following my "coach's" orders starting Feb 3rd, I've been trying to do (hard) workouts that are kinda more fun. I am obsessed with games, so I try to make games out of my workouts by adjusting the speeds and inclines on the treadmill. I have been going through my Pinterest "skinny" board and actually doing the workouts I have pinned. (Dude. I pinned some HARD stuff on that thing.)
Last night I was running on the treadmill, playing my usual mind games. I don't know if anyone else has this problem or if I just honestly have split personalities, but as I get to the end of my workouts, my brain starts telling me to give up. I don't want to, I truly don't, but my something in my brain tells me I'm tired and it won't really matter if I stop and walk. Last night I pushed through it and it felt awesome. (I mean, it didn't feel awesome when I walked out in the wind and that cold air hit my sweat covered body, but you know.) Why do I always question what I can accomplish? Why is part of my brain working against me? And how do I shut it up, because when I'm at mile 5 of a half marathon I'm going to have to find power from somewhere within me to keep going.
I realize the 5 miles I ran last night is nothing compared to the 13.1 I have facing me, but something changed last night and I realized I got this. I can do this. It may take me awhile, and I certainly won't be winning any awards or breaking any records, but I can do this. And I am SO EXCITED.