Wednesday, February 13, 2019

Valentine's Day past

I feel haunted this year by the ghost of Valentine's Day past. This week is weird. I find myself questioning things I've done in past relationships that have led me to where I am today. I rarely do this - but this week I think the mix of the terrible weather and the stress of a project in my hometown (more on that later- hopefully) has me thinking too much.

My most favorite thing to do is put in ear buds and listen to music while I do things - clean, workout, whatever - at home. I know I can just listen to music through my wireless speakers, but for some reason I really like having earbuds in. So I was cleaning, listening to music, and Lips of an Angel by Hinder came on and stopped me dead in my tracks. I haven't heard that song in quite awhile and boom. Ghost of Valentine's Day past.

For some reason, this morning I can't stop thinking of a V Day when my guy of the moment just randomly showed up at my apartment at like 630am and wanted to take me out to breakfast. As soon as he said that, I got so excited because breakfast is my favorite meal. Plates of hash browns and scrambled eggs danced through my head. But...by "taking me out to breakfast" he meant going through the Burger King drive thru (I do not eat fast food breakfast items) and then going to Ameristar so he could cash in his Valentine's Day coupon. He made me late for work that day, and he yelled at me for being too "good" to eat fast food breakfast. I don't remember for sure, but he probably made me pay as well....he often did that. Ghost of Valentine's Day past.

I typically feel really good about  my current life situation and am pretty happy with it. But this week....this week is weird.

Ghost of Valentine's Day past.

Thursday, January 31, 2019

End of January

It's finally the end of January - that was longest month ever. With a lot of work drama mixed in with some family drama and a couple of unwanted guilt trips, I am ready to kiss that month goodbye. But I thought it would be interesting to see how I am doing with my 19 for 19.

19 things I want to accomplish in 2019:

1. Pay off two debts. Not yet - waiting on tax return
2. Go see Juana and John. Juana and I talked and tentatively decided on September. 
3. Be happy more than I'm sad. The last two weeks have been ridiculous. But I would still say I have been happier more than I've been sad. 
4. Sweat more days than I don't. Yes, check. 
5. Find something to celebrate every day. I already have ended this project. I think there is something to celebrate every day, but I don't like to post on my social media accounts that much. So while I am doing this internally, I am not posting it on instagram. 
6. Blog more. I am still not regular by any means, but I do feel good about the amount of blogging I've done this month. 
7. Read more. I did renew my library card and check out two books. Now to just put my phone down and open them up... 
8. Start running again this spring. Check back when we're not in an actual polar vortex.
9. Speaking of running, do a 5k every month with Missy. January - check and February is scheduled. 
10. Watch more musicals. Not done yet. 
11. Listen to more Taylor Swift. Hell yes. 
12. Spend more time outside. When we had unseasonably warm weather the first part of January, you bet your ass I was skipping the gym to be outside. However, the high yesterday was -1. Kiss my ass, winter. 
13. Finish my Baby-Sitters Club blog and sell my BSC books. I am almost there! I also sold the first 75 books in the series. 
14. Move out of my apartment. Not yet. 
15. Spend more time with Cooper and Chandler. I am heading there soon. 
16. Run with Gavin. Hopefully get him to a point where he will run the Homecoming 5k with me. Not yet. 
17. Start and finish a puzzle. Not yet. 
18. Eat breakfast food more often. Eggs for dinner have become a staple. 
19. Watch The Wizard of Oz more often. Twice this month! And a Judy Garland documentary for good measure. 

Wednesday, January 23, 2019

7 wonders of my world

My co-worker, Emily, told me today about her son's assignment to come up with the 7 wonders of his world. It got me thinking of mine...

1. Disney World and Disney Land, specifically the castle.
2. the Iowa State Fair

3. The Hollywood sign

4. Any ocean front (this one in Atlantis was especially nice)

5. John and Juana's house

6. Glenwood, Iowa
7. The most beautiful place I have ever been: St. Mary's Glacier in Colorado


Thursday, January 10, 2019

19 for 19

19 things I want to accomplish in 2019:

1. Pay off two debts.
2. Go see Juana and John.
3. Be happy more than I'm sad.
4. Sweat more days than I don't.
5. Find something to celebrate every day.
6. Blog more.
7. Read more.
8. Start running again this spring.
9. Speaking of running, do a 5k every month with Missy.
10. Watch more musicals.
11. Listen to more Taylor Swift.
12. Spend more time outside.
13. Finish my Baby-Sitters Club blog and sell my BSC books.
14. Move out of my apartment.
15. Spend more time with Cooper and Chandler.
16. Run with Gavin. Hopefully get him to a point where he will run the Homecoming 5k with me.
17. Start and finish a puzzle.
18. Eat breakfast food more often.
19. Watch The Wizard of Oz more often.

Sunday, December 30, 2018

Last entry of 2018

2018 is almost over.

I had a really good year.

I hit 250+ workouts, exceeding my 2018 goal.
I bought, traded and was gifted A LOT of Rae Dunn.
I ran 12 5ks with Missy.
I finally did one of those painting nights and one of those craft painting things.
I went to 4818304818 Stir Cove shows.
Juana and John came home in May and we went to Warm Spring Ranch to see horses.
I saw Wicked again!
I went camping/boating with Nick's family again  for the 4th of July.
We successfully threw a surprise  60th birthday party for Peg.
I turned 38.
I went to the Iowa State Fair again.
Nick and his family moved to Storm Lake, or, as I refer to it, two hours closer to me.
Missy and I went to Minneapolis and saw TAYLOR SWIFT and the Prince home/museum and the Mall of America and the Spam Museum and the Buddy Holly death site.
I went to Glenwood's homecoming and BVU's homecoming.
Missy, Ryan, Natalie and I went to Los Angeles: The Ronald Reagan museum, Disney, Hollywood, Venice Beach and the ELLEN show!
I dressed up as Wednesday Addams for the ELLEN SHOW!
I celebrated Thanksgiving with the annual Christmas lights at my dads.
Juana and John and Nick's family all came home for Christmas and it was a beautiful thing.

2019 is going to be exciting as well. Today I joined a new gym (Genesis) and I am so excited to add new things into my workouts. I may be training for another half.....maybe. This fall. And also I want to get my nephew into running. I may not be successful in that.

I also have some new projects I want to start. I am going to do a "Celebrate Every Day" thing on Instagram. So if you don't follow me on instagram, find me! I am also going to work hard on praying every single day. I mean on my knees, at my bedside, praying out loud. Also, I got a ring for Christmas from my grandma and right now it is too big for my pinky and too small for my ring finger. So I want to lose enough weight for it to fit my ring finger.

Here's to the new year! I hope yours is MARVELOUS.



Wednesday, December 5, 2018

Winter funk

I have been in a bit of a winter funk lately.

I fucking hate cold weather and I fucking hate snow.

But I need to get out of this funk, and today is the day. I have so many awesome people in my life. I have people who thoroughly entertain the hell outta me, no matter what the weather is doing outside.

Part of this funk has been a workout funk but that ends TODAY! I am going to kickboxing tonight and if I publish it here I have to do it.

So I am going to kickboxing tonight.

Tuesday, December 4, 2018

STOP

So last week I got pulled over. I was speeding. I was guilty.

But I was very nice to the cop, and he noted that on my ticket, so I felt pretty okay about the whole thing. He said I had a "good tone". I think he was hitting on me.

Anyway, so I decided (Nick told me to) to take the STOP class to dismiss the ticket. I took it online and got 100% on the test. Here is what I learned:

1. I am a VERY distracted driver.
2. Omaha drivers are literally the worst.
3. Giving road head is extremely dangerous.
4. Don't run over your kid.
5. I need to get so much stuff fixed on my car (tires, windshield, windshield wipers, etc).